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Dwelling on it, Shay could clearly see how some of their shoots had been seen as so lewd, at the time they were doing them it wasn't really the intention to inspire lust. Okay, maybe a little bit. Shay had never viewed it in that sort of way though, Shay loved attractive bodies, and liked to share them. They really appreciated photography. IT wasn't like they'd ever gone R rated or anything, they kept it relatively tasteful.. right?

"A-ah." Shay nodded. Teasing. Duh. "I-Er-yea-" Clearing their throat for the millionth time Shay squeezed out a reply. "I would love to spend more time with you." Nessa was really just so nice, the confidence was awesome. She was beautiful too, which helped.

Shay nodded slowly. "Sure, that's no problem." She smiled gently. "See, part of why I don't go with my standard bodies when I'm at cons." They'd made that mistake only once, never again. Party? Shay twiddled her thumbs a little and looked at the ground. "Uhm. Okay. That sounds okay." Party sounded like a whole load of social activity, hopefully the rest of this day could remain stress free so Shay wasn't too wound up come time for the event.

Shay nodded slowly, watching Nessa curiously as she explained what her experience joining had been like. It made sense, things were more often than not the most intimidating while they were inside your head. "I-I guess I kinda got lucky." Shay murmured quietly "I sort of cheated in through the team." Pros were encouraged to stream, and Shay had bounced around a few games already so quickly built up a following. As they had grown in confidence it became very obvious that people were interested in Shay, not so much the brand. Luckily, having good Coaches and Captains made things easier, they pointed out the obvious social cues that Shay was missing. Shay might have gotten into streaming through a team, but they definitely built their own brand. Definitely a market for an awkward shape shifter that was genuinely good at stuff.

"I'm not that good..." Cheeks were burning once again as they slowly made their way out of the room.

Shay was glad for the change of topic, shaking her head quickly. "I-er-no. I mean-I don't... I'm not-" Shay cleared her throat. "I'm single." The words came out quieter than intended, but definitely still came out of her lips regardless. Baby steps.

Now that they were getting into the thick of it, and Shay's nerves had settled a bit she was starting to feel a little more comfortable in general. this really wasn't that scary, Nessa wasn't going to judge Shay for feeling awkward. And playing games with people was something Shay had done for the longest time anyway, particularly competitively.

Shay might not have had the sense to bait, or the psychological component of fighting games down, but they definitely could handle mechanics. Combos were something you could practice on your own, and labing tech on stream was something that Shadyshay's audience had taken quite well to.

And so a slight grin bloomed on Shay's lips, as they interrupted Vanessa's comment with a stylish combo into a rest, taking the lead in stocks. It felt good, Shay loved playing silly characters like floofloon, especially considering people constantly underestimated them.

The grin wavered for a moment before Shay moved back a little to gain space and then turned in real life and smiled. "If you've seen my channel or gram, you know what I've dressed up like, topless doesn't bother me~" as if to punctuate the unusually confident retort, floofloon landed a solid blow.

Shay hummed to themself as they gently worked threads through in a cross stitch pattern, it was under a fairly well hidden fold so it wouldn't be obvious by the time that the costume was done. Shay had gotten fairly good at hand stitching over time, they could totally do things by machine too, but it was more satisfying and precise for things like this to do it by hand.

Besides, they'd already done a morning stream, it was a good way to pass the time and settle their nerves.

They'd watched through the series once already so they kind of knew what was going on in any given episode, it was just kind of useful to have it on in the background while working on the costume.

They blinked and slowly looked up when they heard the scene shift, not remembering these events.

... That was a new person. Then they cursed! Shay also cursed, but because the needle pierced their finger lightly, drawing a little blood. "What the F-"

Shay smiled. It was interesting chatting with this person, the awkwardness that had initially been fairly mutual was starting to slowly melt away. Okay, awkwardness was usually more an Shay's part than the other interested party, but whatever. "It is so much fun! Lots of people say that to me when they're getting into it, especially girls that are interested in getting into it, they're like afraid to put themselves out there, you know?" Female cosplay tended to track a little more on the risque side of things.

"I've never found it that bad. People aren't talking to you that much, it's mostly just throwaway compliments, pictures and stuff." Shay did competitions, which was always fun. Not so much of the talking stuff going on. Shay absolutely didn't mind being oogled by people either, they spent a lot of time crafting attractive looks after all.

"Uhm. Well. Some of it is from this old anime, Mariner Sky? And I'm slowly building a few video game related ones, I do most of the work on them myself. But if you're interested in getting into it, I know a few people that take reasonably priced commissions, that's how I started before I got into making my own." Shay had done that for a bit, then realised it was more economical to just get good at crafting. Turned out to be fun and soothing too.

Shay's apartment was a few steps better than modest. Truth be told, if you just glanced at the living room and kitchen and then read the price tag on the apartment, you'd think that Shay was being scammed. But almost all of the extra price was storage space, and a sizeable walk in closet. Shay had more clothes than most people owned in their entire lives, that tended to happen when you could change shapes and genders basically on a whim, you ended up needing a lot of clothing. This was further compounded by one of Shay's professions requiring new clothes all the time.

One method of circumventing some of the cost that naturally came with doing a lot of cosplay, was to get good at making your own costumes. Something Shay had really taken to. So Shay was sitting, with a very old anime about magical girls blasting on one of their large T.V in the centre of the living room, sat cross legged in one of their three favourite forms in front of it. Shay today was a fairly androgynous looking Male, wearing a fox onesie and pyjamas, a whole set of materials and knitting tools on the table in front of him.

He hummed quietly, slowly working on one of the outfits from the show in front of him, it was about half way done, but clearly identifiable as one of the magical girl outfits.

Shay micro shrugged. It was kind of hard to put into words actually, Shay just wasn't a very socially strong person. "Kind of? I don't mind people looking at me, I don't even mind getting like, well-er. I mean. Getting checked out is okay." Shay appreciated aesthetic just as much as the next person, maybe more in some cases. It wasn't really part of their issues.

Shay actually smiled a little more. "It's good to know you appreciate them. I try to go for sexy, it's much easier when you can just cheat." She admitted. Her customisation was just the coolest, she never ever got tired of it. Except when those pesky tattoo desires crept up. Then there was a little bit of frustration that crept through.

Shay nodded. "I think about it a lot actually." Gender was complicated. "'Cause of my power I've basically always been like this, and my parents have been cool with it." Which definitely helped, Shay had picked up on a few horror stories particularly from trans friends. It wasn't really like Shay's parents had time to form ideas about Shay though, the shape shifts were happening before Shay was even born.

Shay shielded the fireball and was immediately about to feign and approach and start floofloon's annoying jump pressure before Nessa asked a question. The big question. Okay, they were all big questions. Situations like this were always scary, when you brought crushes in to the mix they got so much worse. Obviously Shay's crushes typically went beyond just the physical, as had Shay's with Nessa. Nessa was pretty, true. But it was her outgoing personality at a time when Shay was struggling to find a voice outside of their team houses that really captivated Shay.

Shay very quickly lost a stock. Floofloon's movement became predictable and sluggish and they got failed an air recovery. 2 left, they could do this. If they could stop thinking awkward thoughts. Sure. "I-uh-ye-hm-" Shay's sounds were coming out a little more incoherent. They needed to pull themselves together.