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Haven presents itself as a humanitarian organization for activists, leaders, and high society, yet mutants are the secret leaders working to protect and serve their kind. Behind the scenes they bring their goals into reality.
From the time when mutants became known to the world, SUPER was founded as a black-ops division of the CIA in an attempt to classify, observe, and learn more about this new and rising threat.
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There have been whispers on the streets lately of a boogeyman... mutant and humans, young and old, all have been targets of trafficking.
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What if the human race began to adapt to the mutant threat? What if the human race changed ever so subtly... without the x-gene.
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Raina's Office (open to new mutants or needinghelp
Posted by rainewater on Apr 23, 2009 10:12:40 GMT -6
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Raina sat at her desk looking around the room. She didn't spend enough time in her own office. She was constantly going back and forth between the dream team's office and everywhere else on the grounds. Today however she set aside time to do some organizing.
She was going through the files of all the new mutants at the campus trying to make sure everyone had found a dorm and that safety precautions were in place for those who needed it. At the same time she was unpacking a few things and organizing. Her acoustic guitar in its case leaned against one of the wall. She'd taken to leaving it down here since her dorm was so small.
She was excited to have a new computer on her desk, though she had a laptop in her room it was dying and crashing an awful lot. She'd been backing things up more recently on this new one.
Scruffed to one side of the desk was a tabloid that featured her and Luke on the cover. It had been thrown in a bag during the Paris trip and at the time it had really upset her but seeing as how it was the only photo she had of her and her blind boyfriend she'd been carrying it around more than usual.
The room was bright and spacious and a few indoor plants hung from the ceiling in front of the window that her desk was under. Adjacent to her desk was the filing cabinet and photo copier. Along the walls were group and class photos of students at the mansion. One was a shot of Charles Xavier himself. She never met the man, but Dr. Grey had and he was the one who'd given Raina the present.
She had a few ornaments about. Some were ocean themed, some were music. She'd received them all during her birthday party. Of course after everything that had happened with the Sanctuary Raina didn't think very much about the birthday party anymore.
Finally satisfied Raina got comfy in her desk to do some work on the computer. Her door was left open in case any stray student needed to see her, or a new one needed to register.
Neena. Calley wanted Neena. Badly. But she was still off helping that other student to come to the Mansion; and probably good she was, too, since one of the things the news of the Swine Flu hadn't picked up on yet was that the underlying cause was the mutant the Assistant Headmistress was after. A genetics recombiner, with no voluntary control of his ability. That, friends, was dangerous in ways the world couldn't even fathom until after they'd occurred.
Calley's problem wasn't dangerous. It just... made him twitch. And fidget. And he wanted to blame those last three Geometry tests on it, but he was being honest enough with himself at the moment to admit that he was just bad at math. Without Slate, he had no right to be in that class. Without Slate.
Yeah. That was part of the problem. But not the biggest part.
The door was open. He didn't really know Raina well; he wasn't registered in any music classes. He'd only seen her around training, now and again. So... this would be awkward.
Calley knocked lightly, before easing himself inside the door. "Hi," he began, running a hand through his tousled brown hair. "I heard you kind of did a counseling thing, maybe."
Pause.
Pause.
Fidget.
Blurt.
"So, I'm failing three classes and I'm pretty sure they're going to put me in with the freshman next year and I'm nineteen now but I'm apparently an idiot because I didn't even remember my own birthday and when I did I made cupcakes and I brought them to Kat's room but she wasn't there and I ate them all by myself and my brother only talks to me when he needs something and I think I might leave the Mansion because I really don't think I belong here but I don't seem to belong anywhere and I've only had one girlfriend and one kiss in my life and it seems like the only time I'm comfortable is when I'm a housecat and I have a strong aversion to pillows and close proximity to others and I killed two men. And I can only remember one of their faces. And I can't find their names, no matter how hard I search. And everyone says it was a good thing, because they were bad. But if it's okay to kill bad people, then I think no one's going to care if I die except Katrina. But I don't get what makes people good."
Pause.
Breathe.
Fidget.
He wanted Neena. He needed someone. He leaned back on the door; it clicked shut with a finality that made him shiver.
Posted by rainewater on Apr 27, 2009 8:52:07 GMT -6
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Raina was just searching through the files of Gabe- one of the newer mutants she'd met over the past months when a teen Italian boy burst into the room and stared at her. She looked up from her desk with a friendly yet dazed smile.
Oh come on Raina, you've got to remember this one?
She stared for a moment. Embarrassment slowly creeping up on her as she searched for a name.
"Calley!" she exclaimed. He said hello and mentioned counseling. Raina nodded.
It was to her advantage that there was a moment of silence. Her memories and gained knowledge of Calley started to melt into view. He was in his late teens, he could shift into animals, and some time ago she'd met... his BROTHER! Raina's face reddened a bit at the thought of Slate. That's right. Calley and Slate were brothers, and she wasn't all that sure Slate really liked her. She wondered how much of their experience Slate had relayed to his brother. That time with Emerald in the infirmary. Yeah. That was a fun time.
"So, I'm failing three classes and I'm pretty sure they're going to put me in with the freshman next year and I'm nineteen now but I'm apparently an idiot because I didn't even remember my own birthday and when I did I made cupcakes and I brought them to Kat's room but she wasn't there and I ate them all by myself ..."
Calley broke open like a pinata spilling woes instead of candy in a wave so fast Raina could scarcely pick up a pad of paper to start making notes! Her hands moved as fast as they could but she knew the effort might very well be futile at this point. Calley was going so fast her chicken scratch couldn't keep up so she focused on trying her best to really listen instead.
"and my brother only talks to me when he needs something and I think I might leave the Mansion because I really don't think I belong here but I don't seem to belong anywhere and I've only had one girlfriend and one kiss in my life and it seems like the only time I'm comfortable is when I'm a housecat and I have a strong aversion to pillows and close proximity to others and I killed two men...
At first Raina was almost relieved to hear that Calley had average teenage problems. Ok, maybe average was a stretch... but problems that could easily be fixed or have things in place to fix them, cope with them. After the recent plights of Mir Raina wasn't sure if she could handle anything too complex. Not for lack of ability and experience, but for the very fact that there was only one of Raina and some of the higher needs mutants were draining her dry. And of course, being away and getting behind in her work load didn't help either. That's when Calley mentioned killing someone... and Raina instantly really missed Neena.
"And I can only remember one of their faces. And I can't find their names, no matter how hard I search. And everyone says it was a good thing, because they were bad. But if it's okay to kill bad people, then I think no one's going to care if I die except Katrina. But I don't get what makes people good"
Finally Calley went silent and Raina had to pause to wonder if the poor guy had a chance to breathe during that entire outburst. She looked at him with a non judgmental face, something warm and neutral.
"Have a seat Calley." she motioned to the softer chair adjacent to her desk. She brushed her hair out of her eyes and thought a moment waiting for the young man to sit down before proceeding. "That's an awful lot to go through at once." she said deciding to tackle the obvious anxiety he was feeling at the moment before getting into any detail over the specifics. He had to know in a situation like this he was completely justified in feeling as upset as he was. Too often Raina met young mutants who felt like it was a sign of weakness. She wasn't sure if Calley was the type to feel that way... but all the same she'd talk about this first before getting to the specifics. "I imagine having to deal with not only the daily life as a teenager in this mansion, but your mutation, your past, and the recent separation from Slate is an awful lot to handle at once?" She suggested hoping to show the young man she'd heard his points, but wanted him to elaborate more on how these things were making him feel.
It was a challenge when someone came to see her like this. Maternal instincts could sometime take over and a girl might feel the need to swoop in and just hug a younger person and tell them everything was ok. Not only would that be unprofessional but Raina felt that with only 4 years between them Calley might not be up for a hug. Often enough when teens unloaded on you they expect you to have an answer or solution with the first sentence. But it was important to establish everything that's upsetting the person and bring it to light. In her experience mutants were so good at handling the situation when it happened it was almost always more the aftermath that caused the troubles. So, trying her best not to sound cliched Raina added "why don't you tell me how this is all making you feel?" she looked at the teen hopefully. Once she knew which issues were the most upsetting to him and the repercussions she'd know what order she was tackling things.
ooc; I don't get the chance to RP with Calley often so if I've made context mistakes please PM me so I can fix ^_^
“How it’s all making me feel,” Calley repeated, hollowly. The door was already closed behind him. That mess of words was already spilled all over the carpeting. So he might as well take that offered seat, right? Maybe this would help. Maybe. A part of him had to have been hoping that, to bring him here. As he eased himself into the chair like the seat might be lined in tacks, he couldn’t help wondering why he was here. Talking about things? Not as healthy as people wanted you to think. Especially these... counselor-type people.
Calley drew his feet up on to the chair. He was barefoot, of course—all the better to walk quietly enough so no one noticed him. And he wasn’t actually sure where he’d last left his shoes. Not that they were his shoes, anyway. He’d been living out of the donation clothes... pretty much since he’d moved in here full time. What? So he was smart enough to realize how useless it was to put down roots. Was there a problem with that?
“I feel like I should be guilty and I’m not and I should feel good but I don’t and this place is an easy ride so I want to run so that no one could find me. Why? How am I supposed to feel?”
A thought occurred to him, as he shifted to sit cross-legged. “Umm, is this stuff all confidential? I mean, just between you and me, no matter what I say?”
Because that running thing he’d mentioned? He could start that imminently, if necessary. Something about that thought was overwhelmingly tempting. His hands tightened together in his lap; the only thing holding him in place was himself. Who else did he need?
Posted by rainewater on Apr 28, 2009 18:30:06 GMT -6
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Raina smiled as Calley took the offered seat and watched as he pulled his bare feet up on the chair. She wondered if he walked around like that all the time. She couldn't quite recall noticing before- but then again how often did she look at the students feet?
“I feel like I should be guilty and I’m not and I should feel good but I don’t and this place is an easy ride so I want to run so that no one could find me. Why? How am I supposed to feel?”[/i]
Raina was about to respond when he added a question wondering about confidentiality. "anything we say here is always confidential Calley unless you ever request me to relay some information to someone else. I never repeat anything you say. If you're comfortable with it, I'd like to take notes. They can help me get the big picture and make sure I'm really understanding and grasping your situation. They're a great way for both of us to see your progress and what needs work, but of course I'd only do that with your permission."
The notepad that was open to one page with Calley's name scratched out sat untouched in front of her on the desk next to an inkwell pen. "You asked me how you're supposed to feel?" she replied. "I can't really answer that, there's no right or wrong answer.... just feelings. If all of these feelings are causing you stress and upsetting your life that may be a sign that they aren't all healthy for you... but that doesn't necessarily mean you're not supposed to feel them. Afterall... if someone you were friends with suddenly died it would be completely appropriate for you to be depressed though depression is technically unhealthy." She hoped this painted a picture for the young man so he at least wouldn't feel guilty over the very confusion of his emotions.
"So I'm hearing you say that given your experiences you feel like the appropriate emotion to have would be guilt but you're confused by the absence of that feeling... and that on the other end you aren't exactly feeling good either. Not be able to figure out your own emotions much less the situations you've encountered in this past little while is making you feel like it might just be easier to 'shed your skin' so to speak and move on somewhere else hopefully leaving these things behind. Am I right?"
Counseling wasn't any easy thing do to. Not only within her training but within her own life Raina had learned how important it was to show someone you're listening, even if it means repeating things back to them. It meant you were taking the time to make sure you got things right, and really empathetically put yourself in the other person's shoes. Too often counselors thought it was their job to fix the person... but Raina knew if anything was ever to stick the person had to fix themselves... not have a well meaning person do it for them.
Her approach could often take a while. It was generally a long bit of making sure the person felt heard, validated, and comfortable. It wasn't always easy to establish this sort of thing- especially with people who had never had the experience of a real listener. But she thought Calley seemed like a patient well meaning guy. He didn't start off their meeting by shooting his mouth off and making accusations or demands. He was keeping his pride in tact, but he wasn't letting it blow out of proportion either. These were all things to be commended and she made a mental note to let him know how well he was doing at some point during the session.
She sat eagerly awaiting his response with a calm and welcoming face trying to imagine what it would be like to be a young boy who often felt the safest in the form of a cat.
Calley’s shoulders snapped back into an alarmingly board-like rigidness against the chair back. “No,” he said, shaking his head quite empathetically. “No notes.” Notes could get found. Calley of all people knew that. The less of him existed to be found by prying eyes, the better. He shied back slightly. “Err, if that’s okay with you, Ma’am.” Strong opinions weren’t much safer than notes, actually. And if she did take them... he’d just make sure the only one finding them was him. Preferably with a lighter, later tonight. Even his name on that blank pad of paper there was a glaring statement: ‘across from this desk sat Calley’. And that, friends, was a tantalizing tidbit, hinting at questions to someone with a curious mind—why was he here? what did they talk about? how much does Raina’s tongue loosen with drink, drug, or telepath?
All very good questions that he had to consider here. Just how honest was he planning on being? Most of the worse things were behind him. She’d said she wouldn’t pass anything he’d said on—did that include things that compromised Mansion or X-Men security? How far did her role as counselor cover over her role as a teacher and an X-Man? More good questions. Calley had a curious mind, you could say.
It was okay. Worst come to worse, he could still ditch this place. Easily. That was the true safety in his mutation: he could be any animal in the world. Even for him, it was hard to suspect every animal in the world of being a mutant. And he was pretty sure he could sneak back in to see Kat any time he wanted, with relative ease. Maybe Ghost, too. His First Retainer would have a hard time finding purpose in her life if her Master abandoned her without a word.
>> “...Not be able to figure out your own emotions much less the situations you've encountered in this past little while is making you feel like it might just be easier to 'shed your skin' so to speak and move on somewhere else hopefully leaving these things behind. Am I right?"
“Yeah,” Calley said simply. “Sounds about right.” He tried to make that agreement sound as ambiguous as possible. No need to let the woman know just how deeply she’d pounded that nail, when she’d hit it on the head.
Posted by rainewater on Apr 29, 2009 10:37:32 GMT -6
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Raina was a little taken aback by Calley's "no". Honestly, if he needed a few sessions this would make things difficult but by the light fidgeting here and there and the glazed look in his eyes from obviously thinking things out in quite detail- there may never be another session. She relaxed in her seat and leaned back.
"That's a lot." she commented. "But I've seen the students here handle a lot. Carry and even juggle a lot. This is your first visit to me." she paused. "Some people have to come for regular sessions. This shows me you're pretty good at juggling and handling things as they pop up. You're only here right now because one too many things have been thrown into the mix I think. More than you can handle. It's overwhelming an really effecting your emotions and how safe you feel." she decided now was a good time to add her observations from earlier "but even in stress like this you carry yourself well, Calley. Some students would come here raging even using their powers on my poor little office demanding answers and a fix to their problem. So I think... maybe we just need to talk about a few things. A few of the really big things and see how we can put our heads together to help you feel better and confident about them. I think you'll find that once we start handling the big things everything else is going to start handling itself or become much easier. Handling these big things can make a person feel really good about themselves and make you grow too."
Most of the time Raina didn't handle anything. She gave the student the tools to handle what they thought was big or impossible themselves. Once they started "driving with the training wheels" many were anxious to stop counseling and try riding on their own- checking in with her periodically as they needed or saw fit.
She was being sincere and honest in her observations of Calley, it wasn't just something to get him to trust her or like her or anything. She wanted him to sit and realize that he has been doing a good job so far. He just needed a support for a bit. Everyone does. And that's what a team does. They support each other.
"So let's talk about your brother." she piped up. "Tell me a bit about Slate. I met him once. He only talks to you when he needs you? Can you tell me a bit about that?"
there were obviously a lot of other things Raina wanted to touch on... but she thought if she started pulling on the right strings the whole blanket would unravel.
So he was handling things well. Suddenly, Calley had no desire to meet the other people who crashed in through Raina’s door. Her unnerving observations continued. And that, he couldn’t help but think, is what I get for talking so much. He’d spent over a year of his life surviving by not talking. Getting all emotionally weak in Hunter’s Kabal? A good way to get beaten up by your fellow members. Or worse. Even the nice ones, like Kitra, could get a guy killed for ‘talking’—he’d gotten to be friends with her, and ended up in a torture chair on the same day because of it. Yet here he sat, spilling his guts like it wouldn’t come back to hurt him. Lovely. Just a few months of freedom, and his survival instincts were already dulling.
But if they were really survival instincts, how come so many people seemed to live without them?
He didn’t really reply to Raina’s speech. Fidget.
>> "So let's talk about your brother. Tell me a bit about Slate. I met him once. He only talks to you when he needs you? Can you tell me a bit about that?"
“Heh,” the cynical laugh dripped from his lips. “Pretty much, it’s exactly like I said: he only talks to me when he needs me for something, now. I mean, we’ve always fought. Always. It’s kinda what we do. But I thought we kinda had an understanding.” They’d prepared for the fight with Hunter together. Trained together. Studied together. The ‘together’ had been mandatory before, sure, and yeah, they’d always said they hated each other, but... but how screwed up did you have to be for your split personality to stop talking to you? Calley knew his brain was a wreck, but most people didn’t have part of their mind walk out on them. And start running a Faction.
“We used to be pretty close. He even helped me study math and stuff—he’s the reason I’m in all these advanced classes. I’m too stupid to be in them without him.” Literally: Slate had taken the memories of most of their studies with them. His first day in classes after the physical split had been like one of those dreams where you realize you’re in front of the class in your boxers, and everyone is laughing. It was made worse by the fact that, apparently, he’d been a pretty good student before then. Not that he really remembered. But the teachers did. Lately, avoiding them entirely seemed like the best way to dodge their questions.
“Since he took over the Kabal, though, he’s pretty much... only bothered to talk to me when he wants my ability. He’s even stopped by the Mansion a few times since then, but I didn’t know about it until afterwards; other people told me. I know he’s busy, but it’s not like it’s hard for him to stay in touch—he’s a freaking telepath. I bet he could talk to me from anywhere in the world. If I was useful enough.” How messed up do you have to be for part of your mind to decide that the other half was useless?
Raina was really only getting half the story, here. That worked for him. Now she could only see half of how pathetic he was.
Posted by rainewater on Apr 30, 2009 9:46:11 GMT -6
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Raina listened hard to try and make sense of things. There seemed to be holes but she wasn't going to prod. Telling her this much seemed to be hard enough for Calley. Though as things started getting really interesting she had to refrain from showing any sort of reaction or adding comments. She was apparently really out of the loop. She didn't know Slate had taken over the Kabal... but then again she hadn't had as many runnins with the Kabal as she had with the sanctuary. They were a distant fact she kept tucked away in her mind.
"My brother doesn't talk to me much either." she said after thinking her approach through. "funny enough, his powers are grounded in the mind as well. Though he's such a doofus you'd never guess." she grinned. "He can tell people to do. Pretty much anything. And they have to do it. He's very different from me as well." she thought this next part through carefully. "Does it bother you that your brother took over the Kabal? Some students who stay at the mansion affiliate themselves with the mansion's core beliefs. The Kabals are different from ours. Having your brother take over the Kabal may be a bit of a shocker for you as to how different you really are. But then again, many students make up their own minds and have their own set of beliefs- the mansion is just a platform for exploring that" she didn't want to assume that Calley's beliefs corresponded with that of the mansion. But if they did, even somewhat- it could provide a clue as to why Slate's leaving was causing so much distress for Calley.
"As far as the math goes... I can sort of relate. I'm not exactly strong..." she said flexing a skinny white arm with a grin. "And Naveed can lift a lot. It's not exactly the same as your situation but when Naveed and I stopped spending so much time with each other I felt weaker. So I had to gain my own confidence and rely on him less. We can take you out of the advanced classes if you'd like. It's not as big a deal as you'd think to shift back to regular classes- even if it's only for a while. But if you'd still like to tackle them I can see about getting you a tutor- though I'd have to make one note about that so I remember to do it." she winked. Her to-do list was steadily growing.
"But from what you've told me so far it sounds like you and Slate really relied on eachother and worked together even when you didn't get a long. Now Slate is going off on his own direction being independent and you may not always agree with his priorities..." she worded that part carefully so that it was open to his own interpretation. "You're feeling a bit of a void because he was so much a part of you it's almost like losing an arm or a leg! And it seems to me that right now you're not sure how to compensate for that. And-" she added "it sounds like you're feeling a bit used here. Slate only talks to you when he needs your ability. I've got a few ideas for how we can handle some of these things, but I want to make sure I've got it right. Does that sound right so far?"
Raina often saw this in siblings. One would have a distinctively stronger personality than the other and sometimes kids felt like they were in their siblings shadow or that they weren't as useful. It was almost always a case of showing the person how much they already had and encouraging them to not be ashamed of having a different personality than their sibling- that it wasn't wrong and that they could really come into their own and be strong and distinctive in their own right.
She wasn't sure if all that would actually help Calley... but she had a feeling it was a similar principal.
Note to self: avoid Raina’s brother. He’d flipped out enough when he’d met Fiona, and all she did was influence emotions. A guy that could literally order him around? No. No, no, no, no, no.
“What does your brother look like?” He asked, not even bothering to be subtle. He needed to know what he needed to avoid.
>> “Does it bother you that your brother took over the Kabal? Some students who stay at the mansion affiliate themselves with the mansion's core beliefs. The Kabals are different from ours...”
“Heh!” He tried to keep that outburst to minimal levels of cynicism. “I wouldn’t say the Kabal’s are ‘different’; I’d say the Kabal’s are ‘honest’.” Fun fact: the vast vast majority of people had no clue what the Kabal’s old leader had been trying to accomplish. Not even all of the Kabal’s own members knew. Calley had found out a lot of things after the fact, from looking at what Slate had been ordering. Destruction of a lot of pretty scary stuff. Good thing that they’d never really gotten the chance to use it. Now, the Kabal was being reformed into a version of the X-Men that got things done. A lot of things. And didn’t pretend that their methods would pass rigorous moral inspection. “I don’t mind him leading the Kabal. It’s a good change, actually. It’s just... a little weird.” Because I used to work for the Kabal, and I’m really not sure if I do anymore. He hasn’t really talked to me about it, but my checks keep coming.
“Honestly, the beliefs thing goes back to what I said before—I don’t get what’s ‘good’. The X-Men are always saying we’re the good guys, but... we’re kind of not, are we?” He rubbed uncomfortably behind his head. “I mean, Emerald is always spouting out that mutant supremacy stuff at meetings, and I’ve had way to many Danger Room classes we’re I’m supposed to maim a zealot or a human-shaped robot or something. I feel a little like I’m being trained to protect ‘good people’, and if I kill ‘bad people’ while I’m at it, then everyone would just shrug it off.”
“That’s what happened with the men I killed—it... it was a car accident. I didn’t know until later that they had a mutant girl in the back, and were kidnapping her, but no one’s bothered me about it. Because those guys were ‘bad’. I mean... I just...” Shrug. Shrugging was good. She’d been asking about Slate. She didn’t care about him being a murderer. That was the thing: no one at the Mansion did. At the Sanctuary, he’d probably be praised for it. Here? Shrug. That’s all a few deaths called for.
>> “It's not as big a deal as you'd think to shift back to regular classes- even if it's only for a while. But if you'd still like to tackle them I can see about getting you a tutor- though I'd have to make one note about that so I remember to do it.”
The tutor was starting to sound good until the note bit. Was the wink supposed to mean it was a joke? He wasn’t sure. Huh. But it would save him trying to get his hands on that notepad with his name scrawled on it—if she made a note about him getting a tutor, than that could be his story about what this meeting was about. Just his grades, and a tutor. That was pretty harmless, right? “Yeah,” he said, after a moment of hesitation. “Yeah, if you could do that... that might be good.” Might.
>> “"it sounds like you're feeling a bit used here. Slate only talks to you when he needs your ability. I've got a few ideas for how we can handle some of these things, but I want to make sure I've got it right. Does that sound right so far?"
Yeah, sounded pretty right. Also sounded a little... mental-image inducing. Calley was suddenly gripped with the picture of him and Slate both sitting across from this desk, in some kind of twisted couple’s therapy. “Yeeeah,” he agreed, noncommittally. There would be no committing of any sort until he actually heard what those ideas of hers were.
Posted by rainewater on May 1, 2009 9:25:48 GMT -6
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OK, things were starting to get going here. Raina was a bit worried that she might not be able to keep it all in order without writings things down, but she was determined to at least get Calley going in the right direction. “What does your brother look like?”
"Like an idiot." laughed Raina. "Honestly, I love my brother. But he's about as neanderthal as they come. He's a wee bit taller than you, long dark hair, and skin that tans no matter what the weather. But trust me if you met him you'd know." she thought for a moment then gave a shrug and added. "the secret is to not look him in the eyes. He's got more power over people then. But he works as hard as he can to not order people around. He's just a bit of a doofus." she laughed
She reached for the notepad and under where she'd scratched 'Calley' she wrote the date and added 'tutor'. Then she pulled the paper loose from the binding and tacked it to the bulletin board next to her. There was a whole pile of tacked notes. One said "Gabe-April-trainee training" another said "Mir- full moon- danger room" while another said "Star- vet- flea treatment". There were a few newspaper scraps around as well- articles that interested her, about the aquarium, about mutant rights, even about Luke!
She listened to everything he had to say about the Kabal, the mansion, and his experience killing a man. She nodded and added "I see" and "yes" here and there but waited in a moment of silence a considerable amount of time before speaking again. Obviously it wasn't the Kabal's belief system that was bothering Calley per-say... it was the mansion. Finally after thinking it through Raina spoke up, "I completely understand, and share in your frustration." Raina had many run ins with Emerald... and her own ideas of what was right often deviated from the group.
"It can be hard in a group of such diverse people that are all fighting for equality to agree." she began "that;s no excuse for the behaviour that happens here some times..I honestly don't know a whole lot about the Kabal ... But if we use something like the Sanctuary as an example... it's almost like a dictatorship. As a member of the Sanctuary you don't really get a say, you can try doing what you want... but in the end you do what Syn wants or leave... unless she's got something worse planned for you. At the mansion we want to encourage people to have their own thoughts, to follow what they think is right... to be a democracy. But without someone to say "this is what we will do. We will only do things this way. or This is what's right, only this" everything is open to interpretation and persuasion. It can be chaotic. It can be more damaging than good. But at the end of the day it's still freedom... I don't know what the Kabal is like- if it's like the Sanctuary where one idea has to fit all or if it's like the Mansion where we struggle to juggle many ideas..." she wasn't sure at this point if she was thinking this through as she went or explaining her own system of beliefs. "I don't agree with many things that happen here... but the nice thing about the mansion is that if you don't agree then you don't have to partake. I don't have any clear answers unfortunately for you on that one Calley... but the fact that things feel so unstable to you here... and seem so stable for Slate at the Kabal could be attributing to some resentfulness." She'd come back to the mansion issues. To be honest, he wasn't the first person to bring it up. It was a growing concern for Raina. One all the experience in the world wasn't helping her tackle.
That was it- she named what she felt was happening here. "People think the word resent is bad. You resent your bother for leaving, for causing you to have trouble with math, for only calling you when he needs help, and maybe for having a life more organized and clearer than your own. But we can learn from resent, use it as a tool to power ourselves and refine... "
Now she was coming for the big one. "So tell me about the men you killed Calley. You don't feel guilty... but do you feel like you should be punished?"
She really needed to get to the root of this one. "You say the men were 'bad' does that help you to justify what was done?"
Luke had just been through something similar. He killed someone while trying to save Raina. She felt it a bit ironic that she was helping Calley deal with the death he caused while the death caused by her boyfriend was still an elephant in the room.
Calley leaned his head back against the chair, staring at the ceiling. “Yeah, but what’s so great about freedom? It just means you’ve got to look out for yourself. Especially against the people who are using their freedom to run around killing people they disagree with. I’d rather—I don’t know.” Have a leader he could respect? One he agreed with, even a little? One that didn’t hurt him for disagreeing, and gave him some direction? He was drifting. And the only way he knew how to drift was by himself. The Kabal was probably the best place for him—that was the leadership he needed. If anyone else was leading it, he’d quite happily follow. But Slate? He was not about to be bossed around by Slate.
>> "People think the word resent is bad.”
Each of Raina’s next statements hit him in the gut, with a twisting sickness. She was wrong. But that was only because she didn’t know enough to be right. She’d come close enough even with the little he’d told her. It wasn’t resentment. It was...
>> “You resent your bother for leaving,”
No; he resented Slate for not staying. And that was something else entirely.
>> “for causing you to have trouble with math,”
No. For letting himself get pulled into those stupid advanced classes in the first place; he knew he was stupid. But he wasn’t so stupid that he couldn’t have seen this coming. At the least, he was perfectly capable of switching to lower classes himself. He knew where the paperwork was. Why had he kept struggling along? What, had he expected Slate to come back?
>> “for only calling you when he needs help,”
But that wasn’t it, was it? What was it, really? His stomach twisted further, though all his face showed as a smile. A small smile. Ah, habitual smile. How familiar you were.
>> “and maybe for having a life more organized and clearer than your own.”
No. Because that was his life that Slate was living, every bit as much as Calley’s was.
>> “But we can learn from resentment, use it as a tool to empower ourselves and refine... "
Because he could be so much more than he was. Because this was him trying to lead two lives, and doing it. Because—because what?
Because if this was him divided, who was Caleb Swartz united? Who could he be? And what would happen to Calley and Slate, if either of them started wanting Caleb back? He felt sick. Sick for what he was, and sick for what he could have been. What he could be.
“We’re freaks, you know.” Calley said quietly. “Everyone who says that is right—mutants are freaks. The things we do... they’re unnatural.” What he had done to himself—what his power had seemed born to let him do—was unnatural. Wasn’t it?
>> "So tell me about the men you killed Calley.”
He jerked at the topic change. Ah. So they were going to talk about that. Yes. That might be... unavoidable. Good, even. Maybe.
>> “You don't feel guilty... but do you feel like you should be punished? You say the men were 'bad' does that help you to justify what was done?"
“No,” Calley said, feeling a little tired, all of the sudden. Just a little. “No, and no. No, I don’t think I should be punished. And no, I can’t really see how ‘bad’ has anything to do with it.”
“I just—I don’t understand how people can kill. And I don’t understand how they can use anything to justify it; anything. And I don’t... I don’t know how you’re supposed to keep living, afterwards. I’m one person. I killed two people. Doesn’t that mean... I don’t know, that I’ve used up my worth? Twice my worth. So what’s that make me?”
Calley didn’t understand. But Slate did. And that, right there, just about made him ready to throw up. Slate had killed people—a lot of people. When he’d taken over the Labs, he’d slaughtered all those people who wouldn’t swear loyalty to him. Calley had protested. Calley had protested hard enough that Slate had locked him up while all that went on; had put him in the back of their mind, and trapped him there for weeks while the take-over was being cemented.
But it was their mind.
And the fact that Calley hadn’t been able to take control of it meant that at the end of the day, they had been the one to commit all those murders. They. Caleb Swartz. He had. What was he?
“A freak,” Calley repeated. It was the only answer he had. A freak who would have it in him to calmly oversee a systematic mass murder, no matter who he was.
Posted by rainewater on May 5, 2009 7:57:42 GMT -6
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Raina watched for any sign of interest from Calley. He was smiling and politely waiting his turn to speak- that was more than she got from most of the mutants here.... but that whole "I'm not getting the whole story" thing was really scraping at her insides. He seemed almost indifferent. He wasn't arguing with her, but he didn't seem to be agreeing with her. She wondered if she was doing the right thing, handling this in the right way.... she didn't want to make it worse.
"I bet bats felt like freaks." she commented nonchalantly. "They think the first bats had sails instead of wings... they could coast down from tree tops... but had to climb back up. I'm sure the first one to fly was an outcast." she left it at that. She wasn't going to argue with him- she of all people couldn't. Just last year she followed a phony add to become a human! And for what- Rupert? No, she wouldn't argue at all. But just because they were freaks didn't mean they had any less right to survive.
"It sounds like you don't have a clear idea in your head of what is good and what is bad." she added. "Though, I think the idea of who's the good one and who's the bad one when it comes to killing has plagued humanity since it's birth. Look at Cain and Able? And what about Judas... was he bad for betraying Jesus? Or Good for doing exactly what Jesus wanted and what God created him to do." she shrugged.
"You did these things Calley... and you can't take them back. Not ever. You're the one who has to decide how you're going to live with it if at all. I can't tell you some magic advice that will make it all clearer to you. I think the only way you're going to deal with this is to have some sort of a plan for how you're going to deal with it if you're faced with the decision in the future." He looked tired and worn.
"I think you need a break." she observed. "We've been here just over an hour now and I think you've made great progress. These things aren't the kind of things you can solve in one session if they can be solved at all. But I think you've got the right tools to put a few things in perspective."
She stood up and went to the small faucet in the corner of the room and with the utmost care poured through a water filter a glass of water and doing her best not to shake or spill came back to her desk and placed it in front of Calley. "I'm giving you some home work." she announced. "It's up to you if you do it- but if you decide you'd like to see me again, I'd like you to at least think about it."
She sat back down in the office chair and looked across at him. "First of all, I'll arrange for a tutor- your teacher will give you all the details once they're arranged. I want you to really think about if these advance courses are something you want to do and if they are I think the tutor should help." she glanced up at her list of things to do. She had a few professionals in mind she thought could help. "Next Calley, I want you to think of one person that you know, anyone that if push came to shove besides your brother, that you could talk to these things about. I'm not saying you have to tell them anything, and I'm not saying that should you ever decide to talk to them that they'd have to know your whole life story... but I really want you to think if you did talk to someone- who would it be and why? I think there's a lot of people here who can relate to some degree with what you're going through. It'll never be completely we all live lives that are too different for someone to know exactly what it's like for us... but I know there are students out there that have similar concerns as you, who have been through similar situations, and can relate."
She stood up from her chair and gave him her card with her cell phone and e-mail on it. "Contact me if you have any concerns, need help, or want another appointment." she said "But I'd like it if you took this seriously even if you disagree with me. Just really think- if you had to talk to someone- who would it be any why?"
The first bat to split himself into two people, one of whom was trying to take over the world, was feeling a little like a freak, too.
>> "It sounds like you don't have a clear idea in your head of what is good and what is bad."
Truer words, Ms. Counselor, were rarely spoken. Calley’s habitual smile gave an unreadable twitch. The talk of a break took him by surprise—blinking, clock searching surprise. The heavy way his shoulders moved when he sat up a little straighter said that yeah, she was probably right. A break. A break might be good.
“Thank you,” Calley said on his way out the door, with a polite nod of his head. Not ‘thank you for listening’, not ‘thank you for the tutor’, not ‘thank you for the homework’.
Definitely not ‘thank you for the homework’. As he walked down the hall, his small smile stayed in place. Names flashed through his head. It was a short list. Neena, but she was in another state. He didn’t even know which one, and she’d probably just give him that white-eyed stare if he showed up in the middle of her mission. It would be a good stare to see again. Katrina—but he couldn’t bother her. Not with any of this. She worried enough about him already. Ghost, but... but he didn’t even know why that one came to mind. She was awesome, but how well did they really know each other? Not that well. Which... probably had a lot to do with him. Abyss—but he couldn’t tell Abyss everything. Not and still expect the guy to be his friend. Or Slate’s friend. Or... was there even a difference, there?
And there ended the list. Calley opened the door to his room, and slipped inside. There was a bed, no pillows. A dresser, no clothes. He’d lived here a few months, and all he had to show for it was tiger fur on the sheets, and a few strands of blonde from a thirteen year old. He stood still for a moment. Then he walked over to the window, and pushed it open a few inches.
A little white cat with black spots here and there leapt lightly to the windowsill. It ducked in an arc of fluid muscle under the window, and was gone. It would probably be back. Three of those names lived here, after all.
Posted by rainewater on May 7, 2009 8:57:06 GMT -6
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Raina sat in her chair and watched Calley go. She wouldn't solve his problems for him. She hoped her homework was enough of a challenge as she hoped it would help him in the end. She gave a little sigh and took the glass of water to dump shakily in the sink then returned to her seat and stared at the blank computer screen. Something about this whole session with Calley was unnerving for her. Perhaps it was the fact that his concerns and confusions echoed her own, or the fact she'd been feeling particularly helpless these days.
She thought about it for a moment and then reached for her office phone, dialed 9, and then dialed her brothers phone number.
"hello?" Came the calm cool voice on the other end.
"Naveed. It's me, I need another whipe. Yeah, had a session today. 6 o'clock sounds good. See you then." she hung up the phone and stared at it. After each confidential session Raina had been calling Naveed and using his powers. He'd tell her she could only speak about what was spoken if it meant someones life would be in danger if she didn't. Afterall with all the mutations in the world Raina couldn't take too many precautions. Not that this would save her from a telepath if they happened to look in her mind while she was thinking about it... but it was at least a little more protection.
She gave a sigh and put her head down on her desk.